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Message #14399
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Birmingham, UK |
Jul 31, 2000 |
Mines a Special message to all of those searching here. About six months ago I set out on the road to search for my baby girl I had to let go of when she was born. I wanted to find her if only to be able to explain why to her and to tell her that I had never stopped loving her. I tried all sorts of ways to keep her, but I was given no help at all. One minute I had a baby, next minute I didn't. It was like a bereavement to me; but I couldn't grieve, there was no funeral. I just had to pretend it had never happened and get on with it. Walk away, they said, start a fresh, get on with your life. I couldn't and six months ago when I did feel like giving up, when I was infact to the point of being suicidal, along came this very kind,modest,loving and understanding gentleman named Alan Collins who gave me the strength to go on. He searched endlessly for me, he comforted me over the telephone when I was down, and he lifted my spirits high. At times, in return I unfairly criticised him for the time it was taking, I became very frustrated and still he understood. He kepted telling me never to give up, think positive, that was him all over and last Saturday it all came right and I spoke to my daughter for the first time in 35 years, it was wonderfull, it was all down to Alan, my Guardian who brought me here today from the brink of suicide. My daughter lives in Canada so we are going to be writing and telephoning each other untill one day when we shall meet again. Godbless you my dear Alan, for all what you have done, Godbless and keep you safe always, I shall never forget, and to all of you here, has Alan would say "never give up, think positive"
Angela. xxx
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